Depleted?

Or dehydrated?
I woke up at 5:30, too dark outside.
went to sleep.
I woke up at 6:00, too dark outside.
went to sleep.
I woke up at 6:30, I washed my face, got my stuff, walked outside.
Weather is perfect, the leaves are perfect, another seemingly gray day.
Two blocks down, left. Posture straight, expressionless.
Train just boarding.
Got on train, sat. watched.
Thought of Europe. Trains will always remind me of Europe.
Especially when in a disorienting situation.
disorienting disorienting.
Fell asleep.
Woke up.
Got coffee at Union Station and felt it as a mistake.
Watching people neither as robots, objects, humans, distractions.
Existing.
Can't stomach a small coffee sometimes.
can't digest my eyes projecting my current state
camera around my shoulder
second eyes
too sorry for what it is
too bewildered and dependent